My friend at school, Ashley, smokes. And, in recent conversations, I've also found that she also drinks and drugs up. Hm. I asked her why she always did this to herself, and her reply was simply "Because I can't live without them." How is it that anyone can live a life so dependant on material yearning without going slowly insane?
Sadly, it's through the examples that are some of my aquaintances at school that I've furthered my conviction that I refuse to allow myself to be controlled by material substances. I can't imagine ever losing myself, who I am, simply to 'escape the world.'
As sucky as this world can seem, I'd rather live with it than be consumed by it.