April 15th, 2003

me :: lake mary


Oh, Nar- shut up! You know I love you, and I've been feeling guilty all day 'cause it didn't work out in NY. Don't worry, I'm not ignoring you- I just haven't been on the computer that much recently. Many hugs to all!
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me :: lake mary


Aaaawr, shit.

I fucked up the yerf forums big time... Well, I doubt it was just me, but, erm, now I'm paranoid. I posted a redline to 'help' someone in the critique section, but it turned out to be on the Friday after a big Core thing at school. I had gotten pretty damned emotional during the day talking with some considerably ignorant men, who did soil the name of manhood in my mind, sadly. I mean, I love men! Nevertheless, it put me in a touchy, touchy little mood. I got mad at toast if it looked at me wrong, man.

So, my redline for the male was good, helped work on the anatomy... But it is this picture of a monstrous male lion sleeping next to this miniscule, ill-defined lioness. Of course, this uncosciously set me off big-time, and I subtly attacked the guy in my post. Yes, it had gotten me a bit miffed, but I seriously hadn't meant to express that. So, my next two posts were threaded with extreme bitch-mode Shoomy, which can only be a bad thing, and were probably more detrimental than anything. He replied saying he hadn't meant to offend anyone a day later, to which I quickly replied and apologized for my behavior- I was happy again, and realized that what had gone on had probably been rather inappropriate.

Right, then.

I hadn't checked my mail in a few days, and I had apparently gotten a PM from Gryllus informingly me, to repeat, that ithad been inappropriate. I replied aggreeing and thanking her muchly for deleting the post, and I proceeded to check out the forums as I oft do late into the wee hours of the night.

So, as I soon noticed- the forums are now moderated. I wondered, y'know, after a long redline I had typed up and drawn out using the laptop tocuhpad hadn't showed up on the post. Now I feel outstandingly guilty, and I have no idea what I should do about it. This was in no way how I usually treat these posts, and I feel as if I've failed yerf and I've been a bad example, and, and...


I at least hope lj isn't moderated.
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    Poopy, man. Poopy.